Hello out there to those checking in on me and my blog. It’s been a long time and I think I’m ready to continue telling my story. I will type a longer update when it isn’t 9:15pm. But the short one is this: I have taken the summer and the foreseeable future to see if… Continue reading A Return
I’m taking a break from the blog for a bit, until I feel ready to move onto our next phase of the journey. Kevin and I don’t know what that will look like–it may be adoption, donor eggs, surrogate, or who knows what. All I know is that my chances for having or carrying my… Continue reading Last Post for Awhile
There’s not much else I can say. My beta dropped and am miscarrying again.
Miracles happen, people say. But not to me. People keep telling me it isn’t over…but it feels like it is. I know the odds are stacked against this pregnancy again. I know the tone in the nurse’s voice when she says we will check back in a few days to see what this pregnancy is… Continue reading But Not To Me
My second beta only rose 63%. So essentially the same as last time. I can’t even express how sad and terrified I am that things could be repeating just like last time. I’m not going in until Wednesday for next results, but I’m bracing myself for the worst.
Beta #1 is in….113! Little lower than what I was expecting (last time first one was 225) but doctor likes to see over 50. So still hitting that mark. I’m still on edge. I woke up with some pinkish bleeding this morning. I immediately started crying. I showed my nurse at my appointment an image of… Continue reading Beta #1
Still early but I’m pregnant! One hurdle down! Now first blood work on Thursday and then another on Saturday to make sure beta is doubling. I’m still very much in a daze and can’t believe it. Can’t help but be worried about Saturday and the beta doubling this time, but I know it’s out of… Continue reading Here We Go Again!